I have heard from everyone lately how excited they are to bring in another new year. Well I'm not excited. I mean, don't get me wrong, I look forward to a whole new year of spending time with the Mr and the 2 kids, but I'm not looking forward to 2011. If anything, I think I'd just like to skip on ahead a year. What do I have to look forward too? Another 6 months without my husband and the kids without their dad. Or how about empty arms once April rolls around and no new baby to show for it? So, no I am not eagerly looking forward to the future. The future can suck it right now. If I could have a pause button my finger would have pressed it a few weeks ago. I don't want to have to say goodbye again, I don't want Tyler to be asking me where his daddy is and why he can't come play trains or ride bikes with him. I don't want Storie forgetting about him, cause lets face it she's only 13 months, it's not like she's going to remember after 6 longggg months. I don't want April to get here and me be a sobbing mess. I hate not being able to control my feelings.
However as much as this is a venting post, I am so thankful for my family I do have. I am looking forward to spending time with my family back home. Getting a part time job to help relax and make a little money on the side. For the kids to see their grandparents whenever they want. To save up a little extra money from deployment.
but that's about it. Sorry you didn't find a happier upbeat post here.
Happy New Year.
2 comments:
Awe girly, it makes me sad that you are sad :( You will make it through deployment, and then it'll be time for your hubby's shore duty! *Yay!*
As for Storie not remembering her daddy, that is NOT true. Hannah was exactly two days from 13 months when her daddy deployed for the second time. I did everything humanly possible to make sure she would NOT forget about him, and as young as she was when he left it worked. At HOMECOMING (8 months later), she went right to him - hugging and kissing him! <3
Just get her a daddy doll, a daddybear from Build a Bear that has daddy's voice in it, LOTS of pictures (I had them plastered everywhere!), and definitely make videos you can play for her! :) And don't forget about Skype - it is wonderful for deployment! And now that the Iphone 4 has skype video calls, maybe even look into getting one of those so he can video you guys when he's out in ports <3
You'll make it through girly! I am praying for you! :)
Happy New Year 2011!!
I'm with you, love! :/ Hugs!! <3 You know I'm here if you need me!!
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